tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728199614169896062024-02-08T08:33:58.884-06:00Eve's SecretThe infertility woes of a young woman longing to become a mother.Eve♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/02136658525666917422noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-872819961416989606.post-19791134916938084372010-11-20T15:03:00.000-06:002010-11-20T15:03:38.176-06:00Enjoying the Ride yet?<div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">Lately these days seem like an emotional roller coaster.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I<b> love</b> the days when things seem to come together nicely...</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I hold on to the good news and try to stay positive.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">Its harder than it seems because at times there are more bad than good.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"> The ups and downs literally keep my head spinning.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"> I just wonder when this ride will be over...</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"> </div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I am thankful to be able to afford this ticket though.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I know there are so many women out there who can't.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I get that being able to try is a blessing alone.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"> This week I started my fourth cycle.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"> The excitement that existed when I first started is not there anymore.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">My heart feels so heavy...</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">My clock is ticking so loud it wakes me up at times.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I want my baby boy(s) or girl(s)</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">So all I can do is continue my little ride.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I will patiently wait for it to come to an end. </div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">I know it will be worth it.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #e69138;">And a new journey will begin.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #4c1130;"><br />
</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #a64d79;">**Thanks to everyone for their support. This is such an emotional time for us all and it really helps to have people you can root for and that you know are rooting for you!</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #a64d79;">Baby bust to us all.</div><div style="background-color: white; color: #a64d79;">♥♥Eve</div>Eve♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/02136658525666917422noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-872819961416989606.post-60955340364742212492010-11-03T07:26:00.001-05:002010-11-03T07:27:58.813-05:00Follow the LightI remember when I found a doctor that would finally listen.<br />
After being rejected by at least 4 doctors, I found him.<br />
When everyone else told me to cut both tubes out, he told me he would try to save them.<br />
In return, I felt like he was truly saving me from the sorrow. <br />
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Never did I want to give up the hope that I could get pregnant "naturally"<br />
There was a voice in my head telling me to not listen to the doctors,<br />
that there was hope for me and husband.<br />
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I am so happy that I listened to that voice because it lead me to Dr. P.<br />
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Even though it took 5 long months to get the surgery...<br />
Even though he could not save both tubes...<br />
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One was worth saving...<br />
<div style="color: #a64d79;"><i>Like me.</i></div><br />
The left tube was strong and yet fragile,<br />
<div style="color: #741b47;"><i>Like me. </i></div><br />
Functional but so dysfunctional,<br />
<div style="color: #4c1130;"><i>Like me.</i></div><br />
It took months but finally:<br />
<b><span style="color: purple;">There was a light at the end of the tunnel and thank God I decided to follow it. </span></b>Eve♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/02136658525666917422noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-872819961416989606.post-56995021179555283282010-10-25T19:26:00.000-05:002010-10-25T19:26:28.542-05:00The Dark ChapterThey say "Time flies when your having fun."<br />
Can you imagine how slow life can be when you're walking through a living nightmare?<br />
<span style="background-color: #990000; color: #eeeeee;">Bilateral Tubal Blockage, dysfunctional tubes</span>...<br />
It haunted me at night and followed me throughout every waking moment.<br />
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Those next few months I felt so inhuman no wait, unladylike. <br />
The hole in me grew.<br />
Women make babies. Its our life.<br />
The hole in me grew.<br />
If am not a woman. What am I? <br />
The hole in me grew. <br />
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Every doctor we went to simply deepened the wound.<br />
It was a dark time for me.<br />
I lost friends because I shut them out for not understanding what I was going through.<br />
They told me there are miracles in God.<br />
Although I felt unworthy who would know a <b style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="color: purple;">miracle was indeed on its way</span></b>.Eve♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/02136658525666917422noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-872819961416989606.post-57485062139217740692010-10-23T20:09:00.000-05:002010-10-23T20:09:11.383-05:00What's the big secret?I thought I was alone in the world when I found out a year ago...<br />
I didn't think there was a soul on the earth that would understand...<br />
I looked at my doctors back as he gave me the news and walked out the door...<br />
Im not dying..physically. I dont have some rare disease that will leave me in a corpse...<br />
The nurse just look at me and gave me a number to a new doctor...<br />
She saw the tears about to explode from my eyes..so she rushed me out the door...<br />
The breeze hit me around the same time as the stream of water hit my chin...<br />
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And there she was. Some random stranger holding her beautiful child in her arms. Looking at me with such pity.<br />
The thoughts begin..."What about me?" "Why me!"<br />
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By the time I could get my husband on the phone, my words were scrambled and unclear.<br />
My husbands voice begin to grow sharp with alarm and I knew I had to get it together.<br />
So I uttered the words aloud.<br />
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<div style="color: #660000; text-align: center;"><b>"He said we have to cut out both of my fallopian tubes" </b></div>Eve♥http://www.blogger.com/profile/02136658525666917422noreply@blogger.com3