Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Follow the Light

I remember when I found a doctor that would finally listen.
After being rejected  by at least 4 doctors, I found him.
When everyone else told me to cut both tubes out, he told me he would try to save them.
In return, I felt like he was truly saving me from the sorrow.  

Never did I want to give up the hope that I could get pregnant "naturally"
There was a voice in my head telling me to not listen to the doctors,
that there was hope for me and husband.

I am so happy that I listened to that voice because it lead me to Dr. P.

Even though it took 5 long months to get the surgery...
Even though he could not save both tubes...

One was worth saving...
Like me.

The left tube was strong and yet fragile,
Like me.

Functional but so dysfunctional,
Like me.

It took months but finally:
There was a light at the end of the tunnel and thank God I decided to follow it.


  1. Woo hoo! :) I love the continual hope you display amid the trials! How encouraging!

  2. Aw Im sorry that you've gone through all of this. I know it must be awful I can't have children either. :( But there's always other options and there is always hope, like you mentioned and reading your posts gives me hope too. I guess anything IS possible! :)

    I also want to thank you for your comment on my post. It means so much to have understanding, kind people. Those kind of comments are just what keep me going. They're also the only reason I didn't give up my blog this week. Thank you :)

    Anyways, I wish you the very best of luck throughout your journey. You will be in my prayers.

    Keep faith!

  3. I have just found your blog and feel like crying, your words are so dear to my heart.

    My hubby and I cannot have children either, unless we use donor semen... and we have decided to adopt when we return to our home country South Africa (we live in London, UK). BUT what a long journey to get there (5 years), and to make that decision.

    We still grieve for the children we'll never have together though... this will only start to heal when we have adopted we believe.

    Whatever you are going through, know that God has a plan for your life and he gives you the desires of your heart... in ways we cannot believe possible. You WILL be a mum, one way or another.

    God bless x